I need to freeze time...

Lately I've felt overwhelmed at how fast my boys are growing! In the last few months Chase's winter clothes (size 2T) have gone from being too big to too small. He's gone from saying mostly two and three word sentences to almost full, complete grown up sentences. He tries to help with Hudson all the time and loves doing "tummy time"- which means he lies down next to Hudson and asks me to take their picture. Hudson has already put on a few pounds since he was born and his 0-3 clothes are starting to get small. He's got an awesome little double chin and darling chubby cheeks. He's holding his little head up so well and is staying awake for longer and longer every day.

 These boys growing up makes me want to slow time down! I almost feel a little anxious at the end of each day thinking that they are one day older. I hope I've spent enough time teaching and nurturing them. I hope I've spent enough time enjoying them. I try to spend as much time as possible snuggling Hudson and laughing at Chase's adorable antics. As exciting as each new milestone is, part of me wants to keep them little and sweet like this forever!

 Now that I'm a mom, I can see how other moms are constantly feeling guilty and like they've come up short. I feel like I can work all day and still feel like it wasn't enough. If I spend my time playing with my kids and enjoying them, I feel stressed that laundry and dishes are going undone. When I clean, I feel like I should be savoring time with my kids. And I feel a little guilty about checking facebook and emails when there are little boys to be soaking up. Hopefully soon I'll figure out how to make peace with it all and balance my time appropriately! Lately I've been trying to just enjoy the moments we have and embracing this stage of life- not that I'm perfect at it- there was definitely a day last week where Chase, Hudson and I were all in tears simultaneously- but mostly I love the sweet little moments I share with these two!