...Here comes #4!
I'm pregnant with baby #4!
Oh this little one is already so loved. It's been a longer journey getting this one here than we are accustomed to. We had hoped to get pregnant around the first of the year and assumed it would happen right away. It didn't. A few months later (and feeling a little frustrated) we were so happy to finally get a positive test.
That happiness only lasted a few weeks. We were so sad to find out that we'd lost that baby. I was a little surprised at how devastating that loss was. I cried a lot, for weeks and weeks. We loved that baby and were so excited for him/her to join our family. I felt like it was a boy, and I missed him. We had some wonderful friends who brought us dinner and flowers and gifts and felt some comfort, but still I felt quite broken hearted for awhile. It took longer than expected to resolve the miscarriage, which was also discouraging. Finally two months later we had everything taken care of and got the all clear to try again whenever we'd like.
And my heart felt conflicted. We were now into June. After such a hard, emotional Spring I really wanted to just enjoy a fun summer with my boys, free of nausea. Also, I didn't want another winter baby (like all three others). We ended up deciding we'd just put it in the Lord's hands. If it happened great. If not, that was fine too.
So of course, 2 weeks later I was staring at a positive pregnancy test, completely shocked. I waited a whole day to tell Ben, since the next day was our anniversary. I wrapped up the test and gave it to him on our date. Happy tears filled his eyes and he couldn't believe it. It was kind of surprising to us, both also such a healing, happy moment!
We took a blood test at 8 weeks into the pregnancy to find out the gender of the baby and were shocked to learn a few days later that it's a GIRL! I was definitely expecting a boy, but I'm thrilled with this fun surprise! Ben is pretty apprehensive about what we will do with a little girl- I'm sure we'll manage just fine!
We are so thankful for this baby. My heart has healed so much. I've been so sick and thrown up more times than I can count. But we are so happy to welcome HER to our home in 2020!
I'm pregnant with baby #4!
Oh this little one is already so loved. It's been a longer journey getting this one here than we are accustomed to. We had hoped to get pregnant around the first of the year and assumed it would happen right away. It didn't. A few months later (and feeling a little frustrated) we were so happy to finally get a positive test.
That happiness only lasted a few weeks. We were so sad to find out that we'd lost that baby. I was a little surprised at how devastating that loss was. I cried a lot, for weeks and weeks. We loved that baby and were so excited for him/her to join our family. I felt like it was a boy, and I missed him. We had some wonderful friends who brought us dinner and flowers and gifts and felt some comfort, but still I felt quite broken hearted for awhile. It took longer than expected to resolve the miscarriage, which was also discouraging. Finally two months later we had everything taken care of and got the all clear to try again whenever we'd like.
And my heart felt conflicted. We were now into June. After such a hard, emotional Spring I really wanted to just enjoy a fun summer with my boys, free of nausea. Also, I didn't want another winter baby (like all three others). We ended up deciding we'd just put it in the Lord's hands. If it happened great. If not, that was fine too.
So of course, 2 weeks later I was staring at a positive pregnancy test, completely shocked. I waited a whole day to tell Ben, since the next day was our anniversary. I wrapped up the test and gave it to him on our date. Happy tears filled his eyes and he couldn't believe it. It was kind of surprising to us, both also such a healing, happy moment!
We took a blood test at 8 weeks into the pregnancy to find out the gender of the baby and were shocked to learn a few days later that it's a GIRL! I was definitely expecting a boy, but I'm thrilled with this fun surprise! Ben is pretty apprehensive about what we will do with a little girl- I'm sure we'll manage just fine!
We are so thankful for this baby. My heart has healed so much. I've been so sick and thrown up more times than I can count. But we are so happy to welcome HER to our home in 2020!
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