4.28.2020

Easter

 We had a really lovely Easter holiday this year! The boys were really sad that due to Coronavirus we couldn't gather with family, but we did our best to make it memorable and special just the way it was. We spent the week studying the life of the Savior during the last week of his life. We started this last year and it really made it so special and kept the holiday very focused on Christ.

That weekend though we took some time to do the fun stuff. We dyed eggs- Hudson wanted to try the whipped cream method, so we did and it was super fun! Really not very hard, I think we will do it again this way! And then Saturday night Ben and I put together a little egg hunt through our house for the boys to do. It was super cute and fun and I think the boys felt a lot better after that :)
 Easter morning we tried to get a good family picture, and this was the best we could do. I will admit, I was pretty grumpy about it. I wanted a good family shot with Lila in it (something we didn't have yet) and was frustrated about the lack of cooperation from several members of my family!
 This picture of my kids, while imperfect, is kind of great. I love Hudson's big open, toothless smile! I love how even though Lila had started crying, Chase is still just holding her like a champ. And Davis is just doing Davis!
 Chase helped me make the bunny cake this year and did most of the decorating himself. Ben really wanted toasted coconut on the cake and I thought it made it look so weird and informed him in the future we will go back to regular coconut. The kids love this bunny cake tradition that we do every year, and even though it looked kind of weird it tasted amazing.
 Our Easter feast was delicious- grilled chicken, salad, homemade rolls (from Nana), grilled pineapple and the cake. We even zoomed with Papa Ray and Grandma during dinner so it was kind of like we had dinner all together!
 After dinner all the boys headed out for some high stakes laser tag! I love how serious Hudson is being in this picture. And how Davis just looks SO happy to be included in the fun!
 Sweet little Lila baby- her first Easter! I think she slept through most of it, but I loved snuggling this sweet girl all day!

4.20.2020

FOUR KIDS

I can't believe I have four kids! The transition to four kids has been pretty smooth (pandemic/homeschooling/social distancing aside). One of my favorite parts of having a new baby in our family is seeing the new siblings bond with her. These boys are seriously the BEST big brothers!

Chase and Hudson are so helpful with this baby- legitimately helpful! They love to hold her any chance they get. Any time I need someone to hold Lila they both jump at the chance and are both so quick to hurry and wash hands before they hold her. I love to hear them talk to her. 

Chase can handle holding her really well, and even pick her up and walk around with her. He gets pretty frazzled when she cries, but he's learning better how to care for her. Hudson stays really calm when she cries, he calmly problem solves, giving her a binky, covering her with a blanky, stroking her face until she calms down.

And then there's Davis...oh sweet Davis! He is so darling with Lila! It took him about 10 days before he really wanted to hold her, but now he wants to all the time. She generally doesn't love him holding her and is pretty fussy, he is completely unphased by her crying and holds on tight to her and refuses to give her back! He insists "I hold her!" He also loves to squeeze her and say "So CUTE!" or "So TINY!" I literally cannot set her down if Davis is around because he'll try to pick her up (or even scarier- play a game where he jumps over her!). Luckily, since big brothers are home and not in school right now, I always have a willing baby holder around.

One day Lila was crying in her crib and I was downstairs. By the time I got upstairs Davis was IN THE CRIB, trying to pick her up and saying "It's okay Lila! I got you!" We now have a childlock on her door so he can't get in there.

I love the way all three of these boys have really just stepped up to the plate as big brothers! Chase and Hudson love to be the ones to pick out her clothes each day. They are so willing to go grab me blankets, diapers or binkies when I need them. They love to help with her baths. They are just so cute and doting! There has been zero jealousy or resentment for the time she takes up and nothing by just love and sweetness for this baby girl! Lila is so lucky to have these three as her big brothers!

Lila at 2 Months

Lila is 2 months old! She had her check up at the doctor this morning. She's a tiny little thing- weighing in at 9 lbs 8 oz (9th percentile) and 22.5 inches (50th percentile). She got her shots and handled them so well, cried for a second and calmed almost immediately when I picked her up.
Having a baby girl is so fun! I love dressing her up and picking out a bow for each outfit. Sometimes I change her clothes half way through the day just for something fun to do- kind of like the real life version of playing dolls! She has so many darling little outfits too! Almost all of them are gifts, and a few hand me downs. I literally only bought ONE thing in the size she wears right now! Just before hitting 2 months she finally grew out of her newborn stuff and into her 0-3 month clothes.
She rarely spits up (such a change from her big brothers!). She's pretty content and loves being held. Since I'm a busy mama of four now, I just put her in the Ergo carrier for a big portion of the day and we are both pretty happy with that arrangement.

She started smiling and it's the most darling thing! With all my babies, seeing them smile just melts my heart! It's magical! She can roll from her tummy to her back (she did this for the first time at like 2 weeks old) so she doesn't do much tummy time- she generally lays there and screams, or just rolls to her back.

Her sleep has been a little hit and miss, she's not great at taking naps in her crib, but we are working on it. She sleeps in her crib in her room 100% of the nights now though! I put her down around 10:00 and she's been sleeping until about 3:30-4:00, eats and goes right back down until about 6:30-7:00 am. I can handle that, it's totally manageable. When I'm up feeding her in the middle of the night, I generally spend a little extra time rocking her. I love those moments when the whole house is dark and quiet and I get to just soak in the precious moments with my baby.

These next two outfits were mine as a baby! My parents didn't have an ultrasound and assumed I was another boy, so they didn't have anything girly when I was born. My mom sent my dad to the store to buy a few girly things and these two were what he came back with. My mom sweetly saved them, so we did a little photoshoot with Lila wearing them!


She wore this little bunny outfit for her first Easter! It looked darling on her. I told Ben once she was dressed "This is what all my little girl dreams are made of!" It was a gift from my Aunt Georgia and cousin Erin. That sweet little bunny was a gift from Nate and Halie.
This little tutu outfit is maybe my favorite thing ever! My mom bought it for her and it's truly the most "Courtney" thing I've ever seen! Also, this darling quilt she's laying on was made by my mom. It's so beautiful and sits on the rocking chair in the nursery. I snuggle up with it while nursing Lila in the middle of the night.

2 months with this little peach has just flown by! The world got flipped upside down shortly after she made her entrance with the coronavirus- while that's been challenging, it's also given us the chance to just be HOME and together for this sweet time in her life. I'm not running carpools, or kids to piano lessons, baseball practice or playdates. So while it's definitely been an exhausting time, it's also been so nice to have so much quality time together at home and as a family. This little girl has brought her own dose of peace and calm with her and I'm so thankful for her every single day!


4.08.2020

Lila's Newborn Pictures

 This year paying for professional newborn pictures just wasn't in the cards- so we just took our own! I have a new level of respect for people who do this professionally and deliver beautiful, effortless pictures- they are definitely not effortless. However, I'm thankful for the pictures we got.
















My friend Katie Rohbock came over to visit Lila when she was about 10 days old and took these little shots! 



One thing is for sure, I think she's the most beautiful baby girl in the world and I love her more and more every day!

4.06.2020

Coronavirus

Well that escalated quickly...

This explains the last month so well. In February we were hearing a lot of reports about this crazy virus attacking China and spreading across the world, I never would have imagined we'd be in the situation we are now.

Then it hit the US and people started stock piling toilet paper and food. We did stock up a little more on some essentials, but we also had a freezer full of meals (thanks to nesting and my parents gifting me a freezer meals instant pot class for Christmas to prepare for baby coming) and just some general food storage. We talked to the kids about good hand hygiene and all that. With a new baby at home during RSV and Flu season we were being careful anyway.

All of a sudden it got real. On Wednesday March 11, the NBA cancelled all their games after a Jazz player tested positive for the virus. That's when it really hit me that life was getting crazy. On Thursday we got news that the church had suspended all church meetings world-wide. I'll admit, a tiny amount of panic started to set in for me. I called my parents and asked for some reinforcements to watch my kids (I'm not taking Lila out anyway) so I could run to the store just to get fresh milk and produce and stuff in case things really shut down. I sent the kids to school on Friday, but by the end of the day I decided I was going to keep them home from school for the next few weeks regardless of what the schools decided to do. Then Friday afternoon Governor Herbert made the announcement that all schools were closed for at least two weeks, with kids learning online from home.

Honestly, on Tuesday I never would have guessed that by Friday afternoon all that would be shut down. It all happened so fast.

So here we are, in the middle of a global pandemic and being asked to incorporate "social distancing" to slow the spread of the virus. We are trying so hard to do this- no playdates with friends, only going out for groceries when absolutely necessary, and schooling at home. For extroverts like myself and my kids, this is HARD. We are really trying to make the most of it. I'm trying to enjoy the bonus time with all my kids at home. My boys are playing with each other all day long ( like they have a choice?). We are getting lots of quality family time. And the boys are being absolutely champs at doing their school work from home.

Here's what our typical day looks like now- everyone is up by about 7:00 (it not earlier). We get ready and eat breakfast and get jobs and piano done, maybe at a slower pace than normal, but we do try to be fairly efficient. Most days we go out on a long walk/bike ride around 9:00. I push Davis in the stroller and babywear Lila. The boys ride their bikes.

Then we head home for school time. The boys are fairly independent about their work. Hudson needs a little more help, Chase does his almost 100% on his own. All that he really needs from me is reminders to keep moving through his subjects. We try to be done with school by lunchtime.

Then it's lunch and naptime for Davis/Lila/Me and screen time for the boys. I decided early on to not try and win any parenting medals during this time. This is all exhausting. I'm still up with Lila several times a night. So I'm going easy on myself and they watch screens in the afternoon.

After naps we try to go outside to play. This is my favorite time of the day. When the weather is nice we are outside and I'm more and more appreciative every day of a our yard. We've been riding bikes, scooters and skateboards. The boys play basketball, tennis or baseball. They run around. Do sidewalk chalk. Play with sticks. Life feels almost normal, except that we should have extra little ones running around with them! These kids miss their friends!

And then things feel normal as we have dinner together as a family, baths, scriptures, read stories and put kids to bed. I go to bed every night exhausted, knowing that the challenges of raising four kids and not only having to be my normal mom/chef/housekeeper/story reader, but also the teacher/piano teacher/entertainer, etc. (Oh yeah, I started doing piano lessons with Hudson in the middle of all this). It has been a crazy time!

Just a whole slew of pictures of our time in quarantine!
 I've been sending all three boys out to play while I'm busy with Lila or cooking or something, with explicit instructions to keep Davis in the backyard (or watch him closely in the front yard). One day I came out to find Hudson had rigged his bike lock to keep the gate closed- I was so impressed!
 This cherry tree is a favorite climbing tree. Davis is always just mad he can't get up there too.
 My cute kids on St. Patricks Day! We kept things simple, but Lucky the Leprechaun did come dye our milk green! We had green breakfast (green pancakes and green smoothies). We had green lunch (cucumbers, grapes and celery) with a side of Lucky Charms.
 A few days after quarantine started we had an earthquake! It came at 7:00 am (Oh and Ben was in Houston at the time for work). I was nursing Lila in the rocking chair and the chair just wouldn't stop rocking. It was a little unnerving. Davis was right there in the room with me and honestly by the time I figured out we'd had an earthquake it was over- we didn't even run for safety! It woke Chase up and Hudson slept through it. I had a little talk with the boys about earthquake safety and how to get to a safe place if another one came- also with instructions if they were in the in the room with Davis or Lila to grab them and bring them to safety too.

I walked downstairs a little later to find Hudson doing his schoolwork UNDER the kitchen table, just in case another earthquake came. And Chase had his computer and was doing his schoolwork right next to where Davis was playing, so he could get Davis to safety just in case. Even though I told them extreme measures weren't necessary, they were definitely spooked. Hudson wrote in his journal that he was scared and asked if we could pray (we did). Chase never vocalized fear, but got a bad stomach ache that day. It was just really heavy- no school, adjusting to this new life of social distancing, and then an earthquake hit. It was a big week.

The next day Hudson was holding Lila while I put Davis down for a nap. I found him with Lila UNDER her changing table- in case of another quake. Oh my sweet boy! He gets anxious about stuff like this and he's a very protective big brother! He prayed for weeks after that we wouldn't have another earthquake.







 During this time of homeschooling, we've tried to incorporate more fun things. I taught the boys how to make french bread- in fact they did this almost entirely themselves while I directed from a nearby chair while nursing Lila!
 We did art via a YouTube video of Mo Willems teaching them to draw the beloved Pidgeon.
 Nana brought us these shapes- originally planned to keep Davis distracted during school time (which they do) but the big kids play and build with them even more!
 Chase asked if we could have a fancy dinner and crack open some sparkling cider! It's the little things.
 We made cinnamon rolls one day! I think the boys got an appreciation of how much work they are!
On week three of quarantine it was technically our spring break. Life wasn't much different except we didn't have to do schoolwork each morning. The weather was also kind of crummy, so we just did our best with what we had to work with. We had movie nights every night. And one day we grabbed Nana and went on a hike! It felt so nice to be out in the fresh air. Davis is the best little three year old hiker ever. And Hudson said, "I haven't felt this good in years!"


 This whole thing has been a huge adjustment- as if one life change wasn't enough with adding Lila to the family. There have been a lot of tender mercies during this time. Lila is such a sweet baby. I'm so thankful for her sweet temperament during this time. I'm thankful she came so early and I wasn't dealing with immediate recovery during this crazy time. I'm also so thankful that we are all healthy, that we have a beautiful, spacious home to stay in, that we have technology to help us stay connected with our family and friends.